Fan-girlin’ Moments

I've been through it.  The hysteria. Being on the verge of insanity. The addiction.  The feeling that is almost like falling in love but you know at the back of your mind you'll never ever get to meet him and worse he'll never get to fall in love with you.  But somehow, in that sick little world of your own doing, you'll meet, fall in love and have his baby. 

Yes, I have been a FAN.

Thus, here I am….sensible, respectable lawyer, a woman of the modern world…indulging in that guilty pleasure of fangirling.

So in chronological order, I present the men I have "fangirled" about from the time I was a teenager up to my adult life.

(I will not count Richard of Daimos as he is not a human being, but merely a drawing.  Even if at one time when I was seven, I wished I was Erica.)

Presenting…the men I loved before. Nyahahahahaha! 

#1 TONY HADLEY

The lead singer of Spandau Ballet was at that time the most gorgeous guy I have ever laid my eyes on.  Gosh! Look at that aquiline nose, those beautiful eyes, that cleft chin that you just would love to trace with your finger.  I remember loving the song "True" in Grade Six.  That was pre-MTV days.  But when music videos became a fad in high school and when I saw the video of True, and that close-up of the man behind the voice…I was in love. Here lookie:

I remember blowing my entire "sweldo" in a class "paluwagan" just to buy his poster at Books and Things (It was a bookstore near UERM) and that poster hung over my bed for two whole years (1986-1988).  I bought cassette tapes of their two albums, played them over and over in a mini Sanyo cassette player which I shared with my twin (which was adorned with stickers of Little Twin Stars, mind you).  I bought song hits and magazines and photographs! I watched MV2, Video Hot Tracks and Video Hit Parade just to catch Spandau Ballet videos. And I remember one video "I'll Fly For You" where Tony had a love scene with a woman…I was insanely jealous. No one could blame me…I WAS A WOMAN IN LOVE. The level of fandom was so intense, it was almost equal to guy no. 3.    

#2 SIMON LE BON

If Tony was my number one, I 'cheated' on him with Simon Le Bon of Duran Duran.  He was my 'bad boy'. While I'd marry Tony, on the other hand, I'd have a one-night stand with Simon. I named a doll I got at our class Christmas party, Simone, after him. She was our 'love child'. I stitched his nickname "Lardo" on an apron I made in sewing class.  I was in love with Simon, I got a boyfriend of a distant cousin to give his  Top 40 Duran Duran T-shirt to me.  The poor guy was so amused at my infatuation that he actually gave the shirt, off his back, to me. Labhan ko na lang daw. I was a little grossed out because he just wore the shirt and it was freakin' summer! (Although it was new)  I washed it several times before wearing it. Ahh Simon, we had great times didn't we?

#3 VIC ZHOU (Zai Zai)

I always loved beautiful guys. That's why it was not surprising that when Meteor Garden hit our shores I'd fall for the quiet, brooding and utterly gorgeous Hua Zhe Lei.  I wasn't in love with him in Meteor Garden 1, he was too boyish and scrawny then. But come Meteor Garden 2, he gained weight and I instantly fell, literally off my bed. I remember that first episode of MG2 in August 2003, I embarked on the most intense attack of ultimate fandom. Talk about joining an online forum, becoming friends with fellow fans. I attended EBs and parties, all in his honor. bought Zai Zai (ZZ) stuff like CDs, collected photos, books and tons and tons of burned cds of dramas, appearances and concerts.  I listened to Mandarin songs even if I didn't understand a single word. He has a beautiful singing voice, the type that tugs at your heartstrings.

I was a freakin' , screamin' fan!!  

I wasn't a teenybopper here.  I was 32 and a lawyer for Pete's sake! But I was a sensible fan.  I wasn't in love.  I just lusted after him lol. (especially upon learning that he was err…gifted). I didn't share any illusions of marrying him unlike younger fans out there. He was just the object of my desire.   My addiction.

Perhaps my addiction didn't become so intense if I haven't met my Tsinoy.com friends.  Having other fans fuel the fire of your fandom is guaranteed to bring you to the verge of craziness.  There was a time I thought that I'd be  his fan till I'm old and gray.  It was so intense I thought it was forever.  

But it wasn't forever.  May hangganan din pala. Come 2006, it eventually waned and died a natural death.  I still have a little fondness though because he brings back a lot of fond memories, a lot of great times.  But I guess like all good things, they do come to an end.  There's a part of me that still loves him a little, especially when I watch him in his MV of Remember I Love You.  

#4 GERARD BUTLER

Now for every good boy (ZZ), there must be a bad boy too.  I 'cheated' on Vic Zhou with Gerard Butler.  Most people know him as King Leonidas of 300 fame…."This is Spartaaaa!!" But in my heart he will always be The Phantom of the Opera. I got to watch the movie on a *whispers* pirated DVD and in the wee hours in the morning I forgot about ZZ and fell for GB. I watched that video over and over again until it got scratched it couldn't be played anymore without skipping.  I eventually watched the movie on the big screen.

I love Gerard because we have a lot of things in common.  We're almost the same age.  He studied to be a lawyer. He has a naughty sense of humor.  Plus, I'm a sucker for those wounded soul types.  He is a recovering alcoholic.  I'm so proud he made it big in 300. 

Isn't he incredibly sexy!? Darn he's the type you'd go to bed with, no questions asked.  He's such a flirt too, a flirt to ALL women regardless of age, shape or size.  No wonder female fans love him. I love him too!

#5 WENTWORTH MILLER

Ahhh Mr. Miller. The guy who made me forget Mr. Zhou. My rebound guy. I wrote about falling for him in one of the earlier posts in this blog.  He's the reason why I still watch Prison Break even if the story sort of sucks now. Gorgeous guy and intelligent too. Gosh, he really does not look thirty-five. Lol! We're the same age right now. I'll see you in August Mr. Miller.  We'll continue our affair from there. 

*sighs* The men I went all ga-ga for.  Don't they all look sooo good! Ah yes, I do have great taste in men. Lol.